Turns out… we all have grown!!
I am still here resting in God.
Even though I can hear the doubt at times… “Shouldn’t you already …?” “Should you not have been able to… by now?” … Shoulds, if only I woulds and the oughts of doubt are plaguing me these days!! Waiting is hard, y’all! It is hard!!!
There is a quote by Eugene Cho that says: “Everyone loves the idea of reconciliation… UNTIL it involves truth telling, confessing, repenting, dismantling, forgiving and peacemaking.”
Our hearts matter. Really! They matter to God and they should matter to us collectively.
In the busyness of life, many of us have to let go of the promises of God.
We still believe them but we have stopped actively persuing them. – Graham Cooke
As I read this statement the other day I felt relief. Relief because the one or the other promise had to be benched while the busyness of my life competed with centre stage.
God prepares you in secret to reveal you in public!
Quote is by Lisa Bevere, though I have heard it many times before. And apparently, it goes on and on throughout your life. In seasons. Nope. Not a once in a life time event! Sadly.
A situation at home with one of my sons caused me to have to think about the example I set for them. He was experiencing the consequences of speaking up and not being received well! The apple does not fall far from the tree! And I was hurting for Him, because I could see why he had done it, what he could have done better and the painful situation he was now faced with! Really I wanted to storm in and sort it out for him. But apparently, that is not good parenting! So I prayed and pondered as I listened to Him
When is it right to speak up and when is it ok to be silent about an injustice?
Before something new can start, something old needs to finish. Duh! Makes sense right?
Only thing is it isn’t all as seemingly smooth as we think. In between the new and the old there might be a waiting period.
Waiting, though annoying at times, has an important purpose I think.
Walking in dependency with the Good Shepherd is always abundance, but maybe not quite the abundance we imagine here in the West. The abundance pictured in Psalm 23 is one of heavy dependency and trust in the Shepherd for each step of the way.
I used to believe that the level of true spirituality and Christian maturity was measured by how well you can control yourself. How perfect you can be! Oh gosh, those days when I had an answer for everything and everyone! That notion is long gone – thankfully! Yuk!
I now know that true spirituality has something to do with vulnerability and taking the quick turns to God and sometimes others to unburden and humble oneself.
It is a courageous thing for the broken heart to open up!
I know Christians are divided on this practise and people outside the church must think it is absolutely crazy. And I understand why to an extent.
To me though it remains one of the most amazing gifts I have received since Jesus showed up.
Ignoring people and their issues leaves them depressed and hopeless because even when they speak up nobody listens. Nobody seems to care. That is their reality.
Life sometimes makes no sense. Christian or atheist alike! Over the years I have learned not to panic so much about it! Not soooo much! *wink*
And yet the reality is that Jesus is gone and sometimes I need Jesus here. Now.Not one day!
There is this hustle in me, especially when things heat up with challenges, deadlines, bills, appointments, that pleasures want to roll in and give me rest from all of this. And it is naturally in a way to want to play and enjoy life, to escape for a while. So many distractions each day. And yet, I find, especially in these times when I feel hard pressed, actually all those pleasures do not offer deep rest at all. I still feel the hustle within me.
Not gonna lie, after I wrote the above Sunday past midnight, I cried and sobbed in anguish. I also didn’t want to post this blog today. The day of German unification. Another blog of me baring my honest heart. Surely by now I should have written a more uplifting blog?!
If your pain feels like a giant… let me start with this encouragement: If there’s a Goliath in front of you that means there’s a David inside of you!